Through this hard time, this is what makes me feel good:

• Knowing that this break up is for the best...that makes me feel good!
• Having friends to talk to about every feeling I'm going through certainly feels good.
• Not feeling judged for falling back 10 steps because I think that one more letter will fix everything and we can love each other again, but then the next day I'm back to knowing it will never work...THAT'S A GREAT FEELING!
• Knowing who I can be for someone else makes me feel wonderful...but also impatient.
• All of those letters I wrote to him after the break up trying to "win" him back can be the base for a relationship with someone who's truly worth the apologies and promises.

Though this break up has been hard...I believe that it will be worth it.  It's time to move on and be able to venture out of my comfort zone (which apparently wasn't a very healthy zone).  I am very impatient and want to start seeing someone else now but I know I need a little time to collect myself more so that when God brings me this special person I can have all of my attention on him.  It makes me feel good that I can admit things to myself...even if I don't want to believe them.  I hope I don't have to reach into the Match.com pot!

what you get when you mix sleepy with mountains

mountain dew death.
itchy elbows (not actually true).
the shakes.
high anxiety.
a positive drug test (probably, but not).
the inability to sleep.
outbursts.
the need to find your true self.
i want rachels letter to come on a sunday because friends are magic and it could happen (no, no post on sundays).
hyper texts that probably make you sound like you,re desperate for attention.
unwashed hair because you would have to wash it twice ...?
cut your hair off so you dont get any ideas about curling it when its long because it wouldnt stay
you write a blog on your phone which is a terrible process and hard to correct yourself.
finally getting tired ...oh wait ive been tired all day.
drunk kitchen- shes gay and i admire that. why? because i admire the ones who are normal looking...sounds rude-sorry :(
you werent really ever my sunshine, i just liked singing the song.
if i could have a sleepover, i'd bake cakes until the sun had to rise...because if i wasnt living with my parents id probably be latenight baking every night and my neighbors would love me and never make me mad or else theyd get the desserts that were gross to me.
gonna pee, do some jumping jacks, sleep attempt

Knowing makes me happy...

Seriously...I never want to hear "I don't know" ever again.  If you don't know where to eat that is totally fine.  If you don't know how to answer to a loved one then get out the way hoe because there ain't no space for you in my life if you don't have a plan.  *Big Smile*