Through this hard time, this is what makes me feel good:

• Knowing that this break up is for the best...that makes me feel good!
• Having friends to talk to about every feeling I'm going through certainly feels good.
• Not feeling judged for falling back 10 steps because I think that one more letter will fix everything and we can love each other again, but then the next day I'm back to knowing it will never work...THAT'S A GREAT FEELING!
• Knowing who I can be for someone else makes me feel wonderful...but also impatient.
• All of those letters I wrote to him after the break up trying to "win" him back can be the base for a relationship with someone who's truly worth the apologies and promises.

Though this break up has been hard...I believe that it will be worth it.  It's time to move on and be able to venture out of my comfort zone (which apparently wasn't a very healthy zone).  I am very impatient and want to start seeing someone else now but I know I need a little time to collect myself more so that when God brings me this special person I can have all of my attention on him.  It makes me feel good that I can admit things to myself...even if I don't want to believe them.  I hope I don't have to reach into the Match.com pot!