It never turns out like you think it will...

HOW TO TOP YOUR HOT DOG

I just really enjoy hot dogs.  I used to just eat them with ketchup, or chili and cheese, but now I like the works.  The "works" are simple:  (Sour) Pickle relish on the bottom, ketchup on the side, and a mustard "wiggle line".  I'm sure I don't always dress my dog in that specific manner, but when available that's what I dress it with.

Just look at that wiggle line though!  Terrible!  I bet those people on the commercial have to wipe that dog off just to get the right wiggle numerous times.  If not, it's just paint that dried out and they pealed it up to stick on top of that H-dog.  I'm obviously more genuine than they are, sporting my flawed hot dog dressings.  I mean, I wore my dress backwards for most of the day and when I figured it out I told my friends confidently that I would have to reverse my dress due to the mishap.

I want to go to Schlitterbahn.  I want to go to the beach.  Are these too much to ask?  I would've had to go by myself if I kept my reservation...but I also would've had to clean all of the rooms there to make up for not being able to pay for my stay.  I just love the water!!!  At work when I'm filling up the water buckets, sometimes, I just want to point the stream at my face, but then of course I go through the reasons why that wouldn't be a good idea: Owners will think you're crazy, your shoes will get wet and then you'll have itchy feet, and...I don't know what goes here but I do know that it wouldn't be an overall great thing.  Maybe this is why I don't experience awesome out of the blue things, because I think about the outcome as I'm about to start.  I think taking chances is a wonderful idea though, even if you still have to weed out the really bad ideas from thee okay ones.  WATER JUST MAKES ME FEEL GOOD...I am a Pisces after all. (dork)

This weather is not turning out how I thought it would...It was in the 80s yesterday and now it's back in the 50s!  What is the world coming tooooooo???!!!  My friend Rachel told me she was taken aback by having snow two weeks into March...and though it hasn't snowed in Manchaca for a while now, I can relate on a different scale:  Cold to Even Colder and Warm to Cold.  Warm weather with a cool breeze is the kind of weather for meeze.

I know I just love bringing up my failed relationship, but it's important to me (not that it failed but what I'm learning as I trudge through the ordeal).  It's still not turning out the way I thought it would.  Every other day I build more confidence and then BAM (like this morning) I think, "I still feel strongly connected to him."  I don't know if I secretly want to never let go, I don't know if I'm still hoping for his return, and I have no idea why I can't go one day without thinking of him.  I feel light though.  It's not a burden to think of these things.  (It is, however, a burden when my body is experiencing crazy emotions due to womanhood and I'm like I WISH I COULD JUST DISAPPEAR AND STOP HAVING TO DEAL WITH THIS EVERY MONTH!)  It's not like I'm groveling...just thinking.  I think too much though.  Sometimes I want to shut it off, sometimes it makes others laugh, and other times I feel like, I need to put my ideas in a book!
 
CLICK HERE to listen to a song that came onto the radio last night driving back from Seguin.  It's amazingly powerful.  I can't believe I forgot about!!!  Below are the lyrics.

I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined
I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
Oh, oh, oh
I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten
Oh, yeah, yeah